Tonight I was sitting at my desk pondering about the many things that come before me. I tried to distract my mind by surfing the internet, but each motion took forever. Like, dial-up connection kind of forever. Each click taking minutes to load. I know, it was tragic. I grew frustrated, and I began to hear God calling me to Him. Telling me to stop hiding. I put my head down and began to cry out to God asking Him for direction. That is when He told me to look up at the window in front of me. So I did. He said, "Look at me." Not audibly, but in the way He speaks that is incredibly difficult to describe. So I searched for Him, and I could not see where He was. "Don't you get it, Brooke? You can't find me because you're looking in all the wrong places. I'm everywhere. I am the steadfast light you see in the distance. I am the clock tower in front of you. I am the head lights flashing through your window. I am the street. I am everything." That did not give me the answer I was looking for. But it brought me closer to Him. Which is all I truly want. To be closer to Him. And that's just it. He really is all those things. The steadfast light in the distance, always leading me to the way, never failing. The clock tower in front of me, always keeping things on His time. The headlights showing the way when things get dark. The street attempting to keep you on the way you are going. He is everything. He is all I will ever need. The truth is I am not much closer to the answer I was seeking, but I am closer to Him, and that is all that matters.
