Catching Up With Me

So since this is my first post I guess I should catch you up on my life. Well, I recently in the past couple months have discovered Church, religion, and most importantly the Lord. As a child I was always envious of those who were raised in church because at least they didn’t have to decide whether or not to join church, or believe. I recently discovered that that is not true, and that in fact even those who were raised in church suffer from the same inner arguments. However, I did come to realization that it is better to come into church as a personal decision then to be forced in. This is because at least you know that it was you who decided to follow the Lord, and not anyone else. This does not mean that I will not raise my future children in church, because I will, this just means to all those out there that think everyone who was raised in church has a one up, be happy for you may in fact have a one up on them.

Also, I have recently joined Towson University. I love it, but it’s not the same as high school and I miss it dearly. To all of those who are still in high school I have a few things to say. One, live your life to the fullest right now. Conquer your high school, and do not back down. Do not become so obsessed in your want to graduate and move on with life that you forget to take advantage of where you are now. You can move on, now! Two, do not be afraid of college. Respect it, but do not fear it. It is nothing to fear. It it great. Three, if you ever dream of something and someone tells you that it is just a dream and can never happen, do not believe them. If at first you do not succeed, try, try again. And again. And again. Do not think that your age stops you. One of my good friend’s favorite verse is, “Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.” You can do anything you set your mind to. Believe it. Speak it. And do not let anyone convince you other wise. 

One of my difficulties that I face right now as far as college is I do not know how to balance my work, school, and church. See the thing is right now I have four classes at Towson. They are awesome, but like any course comes a lot of work. Also, comes a lot of need for money to pay, to learn. Right now I have a volunteer job at my church that I love. It is very important to me because it is right where everything is for me. The Lord, the people I love, my friends. The only thing missing is my family. Also, the job actually teaches me about equipment that I plan to use in my workforce. Everything about the job is great, except that it does not pay. So I took up a job as a lab aide at my school in the EMF program because my dad said it was a great opportunity, and I needed money. However, I recently found out that it too does not pay. It does however give me three extra credits, and is now considered a class, so I do not want to quit. However, I still need a way to get money, but with the two volunteer jobs and school I can not find room for a new job. Some may say that I can drop the job at the church, but I do not want to. And I know that some may say some things in life are not the way we want them to be, but why can't it be? As long as what we want is moral and right, why can’t we go after it? So, some may say, drop the lab aide. However the aide is in my department of major, and I do not want my future professors, or employers to look down on me because I quit. I am at a stand still. All I can think of is to just not continue the lab aide when the next semester starts. However, I need a way to make money, now. So for now I just pray that an easy going job like yard work, or cleaning, or just something comes upon my table, and until that day I do not know what to do.
I also have come to a stand still on all of my writing. I have many films and books that I am currently working with, but I do not know what to write any more. The one film that I have mostly completed, I can not find actors. I am at a very frustrating creative block. So for now that is all I can think of.